Sickness

When will this sickness end?

When will it stop?

The long nauseas days should be over.

They should have stopped long ago.

The boxing match against my own thoughts should have ended.

I fight my brain and my body everyday.

When people I trust are around I feel better.

When people I trust are around the sickness is less.

When people I trust are around the pain goes away.

When people I trust leave I feel worse.

When people I trust leave the sickness is more.

When people I trust leave the bad thoughts come back.

I don’t know what to do.

How do I cope with feeling sick everyday?

I can’t be alone anymore.

As soon as my company leaves I am weak once more.

I hate relying on everyone else.

I hate relying on being around people all the time.

When will I get better?

When will I stop feeling sick everyday?

When will I feel less anxious?

When will I be okay on my own?

When will I know the answers?

When will I be complete again?

I am fighting a battle day in and day out.

I am waging a war with my own head.

I am struggling against my own body.

I am surrendering to my negative thoughts.

I am yielding to the sickness in my stomach.

I have lost the battle but I’m going to win the war, eventually.