6 o'clock in the morning

I’m lying here at 6 o’clock in the morning, crying my eyes out because I was woke up at 5 and I feel so sick. Most people would sleep through their partner getting into bed or if the did wake up they’d at least be able to get back to sleep quickly but not me. As soon as I get woken up I get this big pain in my stomach and I feel nauseous. I hate it. I have the feeling every waking moment of my life. During the day it’s more of a dull feeling but when I first get woken up it’s at its worst especially if I’ve had barely any sleep (I’ve had like an hour or two). No matter which way I position myself it still hurts and I still feel like I’m gonna puke. I would do literally anything to make it go away but it’s never going to happen because it’s just my “Anxiety”. I’ve put that in quotation marks because it’s all any doctor has ever told me about it and it really grinds my fucking gears. I don’t see how first thing in the morning when I can’t even think straight I’m “anxious” or how when I’m just watching Netflix with nothing that I need to do and still feel “anxious” I don’t see how when I’m surrounded by my friends and my boyfriend having the time of my life and still feel “anxious”. It makes no sense to me but I am so fed up with it. How can something that is literally all in my head make me feel such physical pain. What the fuck is wrong with me?! I would give anything to feel normal again. I have had this pain and sickness for so long that I don’t actually know what it’s like to feel normal anymore. This feeling makes it impossible to do things I really want to like get on a bus or a train or a plane or a ferry or sometimes even a fucking car! I barely eat because of it, I’m too scared to brush my teeth or have a shower because of it, I’m even scared of getting out of bed because of it. Sometimes I stay in bed all day because I’m too scared that if I get up I’ll be sick. I don’t have a job because I’m too scared to work because of this feeling. I hate going to lectures at uni because of this feeling. Feeling sick and in pain all the time has literally ruined my life and I look so lazy to everyone else because I literally do nothing all the time because I feel so sick and in pain. Sure there are good days but they’re pretty much all bad just sometimes I have slightly better ones. I hate this so much, it makes life unbearable. How do I go on feeling like this 24/7? How do I cope with this feeling when I can barely get out of bed in the morning?